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On an autumn afternoon with a clear sky, on a luxurious hospital bed of a single-patient ward, Genma is leisurely feeling sleepy.
 
On an autumn afternoon with a clear sky, on a luxurious hospital bed of a single-patient ward, Genma is leisurely feeling sleepy.
   
Maybe it is because it has been such a long time since he last had a break like this, that he let his guard down. As he realized this, he felt someone’s presence standing beside his bed. Genma quickly hid his startled frame of mind, and opens his eyes with a very solemn expression.
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Maybe because it has been such a long time since he last took a break, Genma lets his guard down. As he came to this realization, he noticed a presence standing beside his bed. Quickly hiding his startled frame of mind, he opens his eyes with a solemn expression.
   
“Hi!”
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“Yo!”
   
The intruder bends his lips to smile, as if to say, “You finally noticed?
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The intruder bends his lips in a smile, as if to say, "You finally noticed?"
   
His grown-up son appears before his eyes. The feeling of inferiority that bowed Kazuma's actions according to Genma’s mood four years ago is long gone, and Kazuma very naturally looks straight into Genma’s eyes.
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His grown-up son appears before his eyes. There is no sign of the inferiority that caused Kazuma to humor Genma's mood four years ago, and Kazuma calmly meets Genma's gaze.
   
“...So it is Kazuma.
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“Kazuma, is it?
   
“Everything is over.”
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“Everything's finished.”
   
A simple and clear report, there is no better way to put it.
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A crisp, concise report, there is no better way to put it.
   
“Is that so? Sorry for the trouble.”
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“Is that so? I apologize for the trouble we've caused.”
   
“Yeah, reflect on it.”
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“Seriously. Reflect on it.”
   
Even though he sounds very arrogant, unbelievably, Genma does not mind; he even feels comfortable with Kazuma’s calm, natural and equivalent attitude.
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Unbelievably, Genma does not mind his arrogant, disrespectful tone. He even feels comfortable with Kazuma's new calm, equivalent attitude.
   
 
“There's a chair over there, right?
 
“There's a chair over there, right?
   
Kazuma ignores his fathers words, walks to the window on his own, sits by the window frame, and slowly takes out a cigarette.
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Kazuma ignores his father's words. Walking to the window, he sits by the window frame, and slowly pulls out a cigarette.
   
“The hospital ward does not allow smoking.”
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“This hospital does not allow smoking.”
   
“...I know!” he says as he lights the cigarette.
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“...I know!” he replies, lighting the cigarette.
   
They are still a pair of father and son incapable of conversing normally.
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They are still a pair of father and son incapable of normal conversation.
   
They remain silent for a while. Kazuma looks at the scenery outside, while Genma focuses on the ceiling.
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The silence continues for a while. Kazuma stares at the scenery outside the window, while Genma focuses on the ceiling.
   
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"Miyuki...do you resent her?”
“Do you…… still hate Miyuki?”
 
   
Breaking the silence, Genma throws out this question first. Kazuma places his eyes on his father, who continues to stare at the ceiling.
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Ending the silence, Genma speaks first. Kazuma places his eyes on his father, who stubbornly continues to stare at the ceiling.
   
“You know about it?”
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“You knew?”
   
This is not said as a condemnation. As if he wants to observe Genma’s reaction, it sounds like a question unrelated to him personally.
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This is not a condemnation. Kazuma replies as though it does not concern him, his interest apparently lies in Genma's reaction.
   
“No, yesterday Soushu came to visit. I asked a little about it then."
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"No. Yesterday the Soushu came to visit. I asked about it then."
   
 
“Yesterday?”
 
“Yesterday?”
   
Given the visiting hours of the hospital, that would have been before Ryuuya's defeat, or even when they were still on the way there. Whether it is because he trusts Kazuma and company, or because he judged that they are no longer in Tokyo - either way, his attitude is impressive.
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Given the hospital's visiting hours, that would have been before Ryuuya's defeat, or maybe even when they were still on the way there. Whether it was because he trusted them, or because they were no longer in Tokyo; at any rate, it was quite bold of him.
   
“I don’t hate her. In recent years, there are plenty parents that do not love their children! Even though that woman doesn't love me, I don’t recall ever liking that woman either, so we're the same, I guess!”
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"I don't resent her. Recently, many parents don't love their children. Though she doesn't love me, I don't recall liking her either, so I guess we're the same."
   
He says this so easily; the truth does not matter anymore anyway. “The woman who gave birth to him” - that is all he thinks about Miyuki, nothing more, nothing less.
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He says this smoothly; the truth does not matter anymore anyway. "The woman who gave birth to me," that is what he thinks of Miyuki. Nothing more, nothing less.
   
“Is that so…… In that case, I shall ask you. Under this pretext, are you willing to come back home?
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"Is that so...In that case, allow me to ask. Given what you said, would you be willing to return home?"
   
“Ah? It is really willful of you to ask that now, don’t you think, Oyaji?
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"Oh? Pretty willful of you to ask that now, isn't it, [[Kaze_no_Stigma:Volume1_Translator%27s_Notes#Oyaji|Oyaji]]?"
   
Kazuma feels very disappointed. He should not be the kind of man who changes his mind and wants to make up just because his abandoned son is now very capable.
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Kazuma feels disappointed. Genma should not be the kind of man to change his mind and hope to make up simply because his abandoned son is now very capable.
   
“I am not asking you to be a jutsushi for the Kannagi. I hope that you will take up the identity of my son, and once again bear the Kannagi name. If it would make you happy, I am even willing to kneel in apology, so, come back!”
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"I am not asking you to return as a jutsushi for the Kannagi. I hope that you will return as my son, and once more bear the Kannagi name. If you want, I am willing to kneel in apology. So come back."
   
Genma stubbornly looks at the ceiling while saying this.
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Genma's eyes never move from the ceiling as he says this.
   
Kazuma dumbly opens his mouth, dropping his cigarette onto the floor, subconsciously stepping on it to extinguish the flame.
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Kazuma's jaw drops, and his cigarette falls onto the floor. He subconsciously steps on it to extinguish the flame.
   
This is way beyond his expectations. You could say he is shocked - that stubborn father of his is actually willingly to give in to such an extent.
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It is plain to see that this is far beyond his expectations. He is shocked - that unyielding father of his is actually willing to give in to such an extent.
   
Frankly speaking, he is tempted. But...
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To be quite honest, he is tempted. But...
   
 
“……I cannot do that.”
 
“……I cannot do that.”
   
For Kazuma, this is the only reply.
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For Kazuma, this is the only possible answer.
   
“I do not hate you, Oyaji, or that woman. But, I cannot do it. Four years ago I ran away, and I abandoned everything - including the me back then."
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"I don't hate you, Oyaji, nor that woman. Nevertheless, I can't do it. Four years ago I ran. I abandoned everything, including the me back then."
   
"If I was still just a little kid, as I was then, maybe it would be still acceptable, but not now. Things that I cannot abandon and things that I must not abandon - there are too many now. There is no way to start all over again.
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"If I was still the same little kid I was then, then maybe it would be fine, but not now. Things that I will not abandon and things that I must not abandon - there are too many now. I cannot simply start over again."
   
He is unable to pretend all these things never happened, unable to forget all these things, because all these things will not allow him to go back under the protection of others.
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The one who made the decision to bear these things under the name of Kazuma Yagami, to walk this path no matter how red the road, is himself. To pretend they never happened cannot be done, to forget they happened cannot be done, because these things will never allow him to rely on the protection of others.
   
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“That's how it is. Thank you for your good intentions,” he says easily, lighting up a new cigarette.
The one who made the decision to bear everything in the name of Kazuma Yagami, no matter what was gained or lost, to walk down the road with this name, is himself.
 
   
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“Is that so?”
“That's how it is. Thank you for your good intentions,” he says easily, lighting up a cigarette once again.
 
 
“...Is that so?”
 
   
Unable to see any sign of sorrow, Genma nods his head, and silence visits them once more. However, this time, it is a comfortable silence, rather than the unbearable atmosphere from earlier.
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Unable to catch any sign of sorrow, Genma nods his head once, and silence visits them once more. Only, this time, it is a tranquil silence, rather than the uncomfortable silence from earlier.
   
Even if he refused to return to the Kannagi family, Kazuma still calls Genma “Oyaji” as usual, accepting his existence. He has not completely let go of everything from the past.
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Even if he does not wish to return to the Kannagi, Kazuma still calls Genma "Oyaji" as usual, acknowledging his presence. Despite what he may say, he has not completely let go of his past.
   
That kind of emotion is not conveyed through words, both of them know very well.
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These kinds of feelings are conveyed not through words, a fact the two of them know very well.
   
It is not the one-sided relationship of a father protecting his son, but of both of them recognizing the other as a man - a relationship based on the pretext that they are equals.
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It is not the one-sided relationship of a father protecting his son, but one of mutual respect - a relationship based on the pretext that they are equals.
   
Compared to relationships built on love and emotion, ones with only warmness, this kind of relationship suits the two of them better.
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Compared to relationships founded on affection and emotion, ones built on warmth, this type of relationship suits the two better.
   
“So, I shall be going now.”
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“Then, I shall take my leave.”
   
After finishing his second cigarette silently, Kazuma stands up.
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After silently finishing his second cigarette, Kazuma stands.
   
“What do you intend to do from now on?”
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“What're your plans?”
   
“About that, maybe staying in Japan for the moment is not a bad idea. After all, I had the pleasure of enjoying such an exciting event the moment I came back.
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"Well, staying in Japan for the moment might not be too bad. After all, I had the pleasure of enjoying such an exciting development as soon as I got back."
   
 
“Is that so?”
 
“Is that so?”
   
A short response. As audacious as ever, it's not a problem once you grow accustomed to it. Nevertheless, it is common to want to change someone’s attitude.
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A short response. As brazen as ever, an attitude he had become accustomed to. Nevertheless, it is human nature to desire to change others.
   
“Good-bye! You are pretty old already, don’t push yourself too hard.”
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“Cya then! You're old already, so don't push yourself too hard.”
   
After leaving this taunting sentence, Kazuma disappears from the window located on the tenth story.
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Leaving with this taunting remark, Kazuma disappears out the tenth story window.
   
 
“Hmph, that kid……”
 
“Hmph, that kid……”
   
Watching the curtains sway with the wind, Genma grumbles.
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Watching the curtains sway in the wind, Genma grumbles.
   
His intention might have been to scold, but the smile on his mouth now totally ruins such an intention. Without realizing it himself, his tone is just the same as Juugo’s “this stubborn daughter.
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Originally, a reprimand might have been in mind, but the smile on his mouth brings an end to any such thoughts. Without realizing it, his tone mirrors that of Juugo's "this stubborn daughter."
   
The cold wind blows in from the open window. Even though it is very comfortable now, his body is likely to feel cold very soon!
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A cold breeze blows in from the open window. Though it's comfortable for the moment, it's likely to get cold very soon.
   
“Opening that window and not closing it, damn kid.
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"Opening the window, but not closing it. That idiot."
   
Still unable to stand up by himself, Genma scolds Kazuma as he ponders whether to bear the cold wind until he catches a cold, or to give up and press the bell for a nurse.
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Still unable to stand on his own, Genma scolds Kazuma as he decides whether to endure the cold wind until he catches cold, or to give in and summon a nurse.
   
   
   
Looking up at the window, Kazuma shows a smile of bad intentions.
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Looking up at his father's window, Kazuma reveals an impish smile.
   
“Don’t catch a cold, old man.
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"Try not to catch a cold, Oyaji."
   
Saying that, he turns his back to the hospital and walks out with no planned purpose. This is how it has been since the past, and this is how it shall be from now on.
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With that, he turns his back to the hospital, and walks away without a destination in mind. This is how it's always been, and this is how it always will be.
   
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(For the time being, why don't I look for somewhere to stay.)
(Let’s just find a house to stay in first!)
 
   
The wind blows as it wishes. The back view of that man, who meaningfully hums a song, steps out with quick steps and slowly leaves.
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The wind blows as the man's back, meaningfully humming, takes lively steps, and slowly disappears.

Revision as of 06:18, 30 August 2008

Epilogue

On an autumn afternoon with a clear sky, on a luxurious hospital bed of a single-patient ward, Genma is leisurely feeling sleepy.

Maybe because it has been such a long time since he last took a break, Genma lets his guard down. As he came to this realization, he noticed a presence standing beside his bed. Quickly hiding his startled frame of mind, he opens his eyes with a solemn expression.

“Yo!”

The intruder bends his lips in a smile, as if to say, "You finally noticed?"

His grown-up son appears before his eyes. There is no sign of the inferiority that caused Kazuma to humor Genma's mood four years ago, and Kazuma calmly meets Genma's gaze.

“Kazuma, is it?”

“Everything's finished.”

A crisp, concise report, there is no better way to put it.

“Is that so? I apologize for the trouble we've caused.”

“Seriously. Reflect on it.”

Unbelievably, Genma does not mind his arrogant, disrespectful tone. He even feels comfortable with Kazuma's new calm, equivalent attitude.

“There's a chair over there, right?

Kazuma ignores his father's words. Walking to the window, he sits by the window frame, and slowly pulls out a cigarette.

“This hospital does not allow smoking.”

“...I know!” he replies, lighting the cigarette.

They are still a pair of father and son incapable of normal conversation.

The silence continues for a while. Kazuma stares at the scenery outside the window, while Genma focuses on the ceiling.

"Miyuki...do you resent her?”

Ending the silence, Genma speaks first. Kazuma places his eyes on his father, who stubbornly continues to stare at the ceiling.

“You knew?”

This is not a condemnation. Kazuma replies as though it does not concern him, his interest apparently lies in Genma's reaction.

"No. Yesterday the Soushu came to visit. I asked about it then."

“Yesterday?”

Given the hospital's visiting hours, that would have been before Ryuuya's defeat, or maybe even when they were still on the way there. Whether it was because he trusted them, or because they were no longer in Tokyo; at any rate, it was quite bold of him.

"I don't resent her. Recently, many parents don't love their children. Though she doesn't love me, I don't recall liking her either, so I guess we're the same."

He says this smoothly; the truth does not matter anymore anyway. "The woman who gave birth to me," that is what he thinks of Miyuki. Nothing more, nothing less.

"Is that so...In that case, allow me to ask. Given what you said, would you be willing to return home?"

"Oh? Pretty willful of you to ask that now, isn't it, Oyaji?"

Kazuma feels disappointed. Genma should not be the kind of man to change his mind and hope to make up simply because his abandoned son is now very capable.

"I am not asking you to return as a jutsushi for the Kannagi. I hope that you will return as my son, and once more bear the Kannagi name. If you want, I am willing to kneel in apology. So come back."

Genma's eyes never move from the ceiling as he says this.

Kazuma's jaw drops, and his cigarette falls onto the floor. He subconsciously steps on it to extinguish the flame.

It is plain to see that this is far beyond his expectations. He is shocked - that unyielding father of his is actually willing to give in to such an extent.

To be quite honest, he is tempted. But...

“……I cannot do that.”

For Kazuma, this is the only possible answer.

"I don't hate you, Oyaji, nor that woman. Nevertheless, I can't do it. Four years ago I ran. I abandoned everything, including the me back then."

"If I was still the same little kid I was then, then maybe it would be fine, but not now. Things that I will not abandon and things that I must not abandon - there are too many now. I cannot simply start over again."

The one who made the decision to bear these things under the name of Kazuma Yagami, to walk this path no matter how red the road, is himself. To pretend they never happened cannot be done, to forget they happened cannot be done, because these things will never allow him to rely on the protection of others.

“That's how it is. Thank you for your good intentions,” he says easily, lighting up a new cigarette.

“Is that so?”

Unable to catch any sign of sorrow, Genma nods his head once, and silence visits them once more. Only, this time, it is a tranquil silence, rather than the uncomfortable silence from earlier.

Even if he does not wish to return to the Kannagi, Kazuma still calls Genma "Oyaji" as usual, acknowledging his presence. Despite what he may say, he has not completely let go of his past.

These kinds of feelings are conveyed not through words, a fact the two of them know very well.

It is not the one-sided relationship of a father protecting his son, but one of mutual respect - a relationship based on the pretext that they are equals.

Compared to relationships founded on affection and emotion, ones built on warmth, this type of relationship suits the two better.

“Then, I shall take my leave.”

After silently finishing his second cigarette, Kazuma stands.

“What're your plans?”

"Well, staying in Japan for the moment might not be too bad. After all, I had the pleasure of enjoying such an exciting development as soon as I got back."

“Is that so?”

A short response. As brazen as ever, an attitude he had become accustomed to. Nevertheless, it is human nature to desire to change others.

“Cya then! You're old already, so don't push yourself too hard.”

Leaving with this taunting remark, Kazuma disappears out the tenth story window.

“Hmph, that kid……”

Watching the curtains sway in the wind, Genma grumbles.

Originally, a reprimand might have been in mind, but the smile on his mouth brings an end to any such thoughts. Without realizing it, his tone mirrors that of Juugo's "this stubborn daughter."

A cold breeze blows in from the open window. Though it's comfortable for the moment, it's likely to get cold very soon.

"Opening the window, but not closing it. That idiot."

Still unable to stand on his own, Genma scolds Kazuma as he decides whether to endure the cold wind until he catches cold, or to give in and summon a nurse.


Looking up at his father's window, Kazuma reveals an impish smile.

"Try not to catch a cold, Oyaji."

With that, he turns his back to the hospital, and walks away without a destination in mind. This is how it's always been, and this is how it always will be.

(For the time being, why don't I look for somewhere to stay.)

The wind blows as the man's back, meaningfully humming, takes lively steps, and slowly disappears.