YoakeNoHikari wrote:Conversely, I have no proof that you're telling the truth. Rather, I feel more inclined to think you're lying, because it makes you a better person that way.
If you really did get raped and don't feel apologetic about that comment you made, you're a failure as a human being. If you can't sympathize or empathize with others despite being subjected to it yourself, you're scum. If you think the world owes you the slightest thing, it doesn't. If you think that you're special, you're not. If you have the poking arrogance to believe that since you experienced it you have the right to feel that you don't need to say sorry, you should just die. What kind of girl would endeavour to love someone with such an evident lack of compassion?
Your word is the dirt beneath my feet, you expect me to trust what you say?
Um.. I'm starting to like you even more. It's a fact it did occur. I'm a failure as a human being as you said. I really do see my self as scum. I do not believe the world owes me anything, and I know I owe it more than I can ever pay it back. I do not think I'm special, rather, the opposite. I think I'm, as you mention, dirt beneath your feet. Something that shouldn't exist. I do not any arrogance, I know that much. I do believe I should die, however I fear doing so myself. I never been in a relationship because I cannot share something that doesn't exist. I really don't care for others, as you said. That is truthful. As it sums up, I don't really care what you think of me. Rather, I care for how I view you. You are honest, and that I admire. I cannot be honest in real life, however, on the internet, where no one knows who I am, I can tell all the secrets pent up. This conversation has been the most simulating thing in my entire life. Just as I write, I can feel my body and chest heating up, my heart pounding, and anxiety just thinking about your next words. I can feel tears swelling up in my eyes. I think it's tears of joy. I'm speechless, yet I try to find things to say. I do have emotions, but I haven't felt any in over 10 years (memorable ones). For that I thank you.
Sorry for rambling.
